Archive for January, 2009

hello

Friday, January 30th, 2009

i've had your smoldering (lack of) words burning smoke through my lungs, and i was thinking, how appropriate that your kisses taste like faded cigarettes (your chin like sandpaper against my spine.) idreamandream restlessly listlessly of the way your face changes with the anticipation of flight and beat and rhythm and we move through ...

Wednesday, January 21st, 2009

i am almost positive that your lungs match the folds above my collarbone and the way your tone comes in identical waves and falls, i know. i've seen you before. -- "The way young people stupidly spin around each other Resembles a garden with a thousand detours" -- Jacob Cats

Tuesday, January 20th, 2009

"It's the easiest way to forget how good I felt near you, but the hardest way to forget how good you felt." - tetheredto i can't stand it. my malleability under the warmth of your skin and "he's just not that into you" ringing in my mind

among other things

Saturday, January 10th, 2009

most of the time, i'm wondering if there are actually stages of numbness, or if it's all rolled into some kind of messy ball of nonchalance. i wonder how our bodies go through the motions. and how alike we are. not wanting to give an inch. not wanting to ask ...

tidbits

Thursday, January 8th, 2009

i. "just remember, when you should grab something, grab it. if you should let go, let go." ii. i've had this Marc Anthony salsa song stuck in my head for my entire workday. "Ay... como te quiero, ay como te adoro, ay Lolita linda, tu eres mi tesoro. Es que me vuelves ...

when length matters most

Wednesday, January 7th, 2009

it's winter, and my hair takes over three hours to dry. i should cut it, probably.

year of the ox

Wednesday, January 7th, 2009

if i am working through stages of numbness to ultimately reach a goal of detachment, what does that mean for "living"? why do i curse myself for feeling too much, when maybe that's what makes life worth living? and what of vulnerability? if we do not allow ourselves to feel vulnerable, are ...

Monday, January 5th, 2009

and if i assume that petals fall sadly from their flowers but with grace, i would picture them falling the way they did today.

remember that time when

Saturday, January 3rd, 2009

i was reading someone else's new year's resolutions. cliche as it is, and as unconventional as i claim to be... it's worth thinking about. we're hurrying around trying to find a means to live, and occasionally we need to have some kind of bookmark to remind us to stop and ...